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In Loving Memory
Raquel Salinas
August 14, 1969 - April 23, 2018

(April 23, 2018, sorting it out)
I met Raquel in the Winter of 1988, and have been actively 'in love' with
her every day ever since.  We were together nearly every day and night
for 30 years.  

She was there for me when my eyes fell apart.  I have been there for the
last 14 years since a bad prescription drug killed her kidneys, and for the
last 2 years when another prescription mishap brought necrotic tissue
damage (gangrene) to her legs.  As the skin, tissue, muscle and nerves
has been being eaten away, the strongest person I’ve ever known has
been crying and screaming most of her waking hours.  I have been in
charge of everything, trying to hold a sinking ship together…and unable
to do anything but slow the sinking.  She became completely immobile
several days ago.  Missed dialysis treatments further building up toxicity in
her blood.  I called medics Monday morning to take her to hospital, and it
was decided a very simple surgery might remove enough necrotic tissue to
give her body a break to focus on other healing.  They put her under. Her
heart stopped.  Her heart did not start again.  My wife died today. I held
her hand for a long time after she died; I have not been able to touch her,
not even hold her hands in years for more than a minute because the pain
causes her to cry.  She is not hurting anymore. 30 years together almost
every day and night, a bad surgery, and I am left holding my wife until she
grew cold.  But she is not hurting anymore.
~Written for the Altar erected at The Everygreen State College
Things are difficult now as we feel the loss of our Champion.  Raquel was always a shining example of the
principles she believed in. Always warm, patient, insightful, clever with a sense of delightful silliness, and strong,
She inspired others and helped us find our own strength and power to know that we can make differences for the
betterment of our world.  She never faltered. Raquel took great efforts to conceal her own chronic pain so as to not
be too distracting to those around her, so that she could help them with whatever issues were at hand, when she
could have been asking for a bit of help from others who would have given it gladly, but she did not want to distract
from her mission.  She was selfless, she was True, she was there for all of us always and in all ways.  I take comfort
in hearing that those who knew Raquel are coming together to share memories of her, and to honor her spirit.  Our
Raquel was Love; she loved us all and inspired and nurtured love wherever she was.  Love grows and brightens
the darkness. As Raquel spread her light, others found their own light and added to the brilliance.  I want to offer
my sincerest thanks to those of you who gave your Love and Friendship to Raquel, making her life’s struggles a bit

There are no ‘right words’ for this kind of thing.  We can only take our faltering and lacking words and share them,
for it is by doing this that the truth and love behind the words can be felt and heal and carry us forward to make our
world a better place.
We're working to establish an ongoing scholarship in Raquel's name.  She worked her whole life to help people
find their power and hone their skills to improve their own lives as well as the rest of our world.  it is my
understanding that we need $26,000 to establish an ongoing scholarship to be awarded to new recipients each
year.  If we cannot reach this amount, we will award the earned money as a one time scholarship, but we're
really working to make the everlasting scholarship a reality.  You can make donations here: